Monday, February 29, 2016
Right Now :: Leap Day
It feels like a whirlwind of a month that has culmenated. I am not oblivious to the world's problems nor to my own struggles (and yes I do struggle and at times it is intense). But for today, even with the struggles of today I choose to believe in what God's thoughts are for me and not in my doubts. There are a lot of doubts but faith is believing in what I cannot see. I want to let God to consume me and to restore me to how He sees me. So today I choose, in this moment I choose. Regardless of circumstances I choose.
Now check back with me in an hour and I'll tell you whether I choose or not because it is a process.
Friday, February 5, 2016
Why I love my life right now...
I love my life right now...not because there are answers to my questions because for many of them I have to wait.
I love it because it is an adventure whereby I have to practice continual trust that my life is not my own and that God is good. He is truly good for whatever happens. God is conspiring to bless me, I'm sure of it. It scares me to say it though sometimes because I see and experience people's worst fears first hand. But they have also taught me that life goes on and that joy has to be refound in the simple things that cannot be replaced.
I could lament about many things but honestly that won't help. I could wish away things that could be different but that would take away time.
I love it because I know I'm blessed with health, with friendship, with love and with the blessing of living a sunny day. I have a house that I hope to make more into a home with time. I have eyes that see colors and a nose that smells many scents. My mouth can taste what the world has to offer in food and I can listen to the wind and to voices as they speak pain and elation.
I don't know what tomorrow brings. I can plan and analyze but ultimately it's not up to me. I can train and push myself but if I turn a good thing into an idol then it's meaningless. I can worry about full-time, part-time or no work and in the end what counts is that the work is meaningful and that God can use me wherever He desires. I choose to inhabit my days and think differently than most. I won't settle and that word drives me crazy. I will push the lines because who knows where it will go? If I play safe all the time then I will miss out on opportunities and on blessings.
Feeling is part of living; although I can't be bound by feelings. We either live bravely or we give into the notion that "this is all there is". Live in piece that you are exactly where you need to be and if you don't like it then change your view. Sit at an angle or even go upside down (though not when driving) but change something. Take a risk.
I love it because it is an adventure whereby I have to practice continual trust that my life is not my own and that God is good. He is truly good for whatever happens. God is conspiring to bless me, I'm sure of it. It scares me to say it though sometimes because I see and experience people's worst fears first hand. But they have also taught me that life goes on and that joy has to be refound in the simple things that cannot be replaced.
I could lament about many things but honestly that won't help. I could wish away things that could be different but that would take away time.
I love it because I know I'm blessed with health, with friendship, with love and with the blessing of living a sunny day. I have a house that I hope to make more into a home with time. I have eyes that see colors and a nose that smells many scents. My mouth can taste what the world has to offer in food and I can listen to the wind and to voices as they speak pain and elation.
I don't know what tomorrow brings. I can plan and analyze but ultimately it's not up to me. I can train and push myself but if I turn a good thing into an idol then it's meaningless. I can worry about full-time, part-time or no work and in the end what counts is that the work is meaningful and that God can use me wherever He desires. I choose to inhabit my days and think differently than most. I won't settle and that word drives me crazy. I will push the lines because who knows where it will go? If I play safe all the time then I will miss out on opportunities and on blessings.
Feeling is part of living; although I can't be bound by feelings. We either live bravely or we give into the notion that "this is all there is". Live in piece that you are exactly where you need to be and if you don't like it then change your view. Sit at an angle or even go upside down (though not when driving) but change something. Take a risk.
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