I Thought...

 "Where do you think you should be right now?" I ask myself.
I thought I would be further...

It's a never-ending dream I have of asking myself where I thought I would be in my life at this point, at 41 years age. I guess I thought I would be working a hustle life, 8-5 job that had benefits and retirement, provided financial security and created a impact in my community.

I knew I'd be a mama and would likely have children, but did not fully grasp what that role would entail: emotionally supporting little and big people, being available and present for their needs and picking up after them although I have trained them to do so themselves, keeping tabs on their schooling and health appointments, negotiating insurance plans and monitoring 529 plans.

I guess I thought there would be more fun and really there is fun, but it's a different fun. It's a different pace and it's a different life than envisioned.

But there is more...

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